Pretty in Pink

I have my favorite dress on, guess what color it is?

Sometimes everybody has doubts, about anything. About relationships. I had my doubts and this will sound like a total cliché but talking about them helps. I wondered if things will work out with Jordan. Are we too different? We want different things in life, are those things compatible? How large is the risk that we won't be together forever? Is it worth trying anyways? Are we taking the wrong way and doing the wrong thing?

Much of my concerns can probably be explained by my upcoming period. But I think that all of us have doubts sometimes. And you know what, it is okay to doubt your relationship. Of course Jordan was hurt by my thoughts but how can one be sure if you never wonder?

How can you claim to have the answer to a question you never asked?

I shared my thoughts and fears with the one person that could help me figure them out: Jordan. We talked throughout the night, I cried a lot (and I totally blame the period for it), and we solved things. I had carried my doubts around for a while and it was a relief to finally air them. Hiding things like that from your partner only makes it worse.

I don't doubt anymore. I'm fine, more than fine. I am great, so great that today became a pink day. :)